Stormy with a chance

adventures of agoraphobia and anxiety

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button up sherman replied to your post: Mom was moved to a different hosp…

*hugs* I can’t imagine what you’re going through. But I’m always here to listen if you need

Thank you my darling friend. I hate to say it but I’ve gotten kind of use to this. She has been “attempting” for the past two and half years. She actually did this exactly a year ago.

I’ve tried to help her. I’ve given her all my love and time. But in the end it destroys me. I think on this front I need to be selfish and think of myself and my other family. I have to live life.

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Mom was moved to a different hospital today. I went to visit her. I never know what to say to her after she does this. I’m always so angry, but I know I have to be quiet.

Didn’t eat anything until afterwards, because I was too anxious. But once I did eat sandwich and am feeling better.

I shouldn’t let her bad decisions have control over my life. It breaks my heart, but I think I’m learning how to make sure it doesn’t stop my life.

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Mother overdosed again today. I had to take her to the ER. And I wonder why I have anxiety.

But I’m proud of myself for one reason. I realized during crisis when people need me, I can do anything. I can push my anxiety away and get things done.

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Seeing the doctor…. in actually five hours…. damn I should go to sleep.

I think it will be good just to hear from that what I’m going through is normal.

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Day 10

Nearly off the original med, and completely on the new one. I hate the way this is all making me feel. I will like I’m on the edge of a panic attack most of the time… I’ll be seeing the doctor in a few days… hopefully he can tell me if any of this is normal.

Started taking vitamins. I’m going to try to take them regularly. (I guess try is the key word)

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